Saturday, August 9, 2014

raya 2014

just another celebration
with gratefulness

The eid celebration this time around was a bit mundane, I think. But it never fail to remind me that I must be grateful for everything that I have. I mean, as we all know, 2014 is a bit of a dramatic year to us Malaysians.

The lost MH370
The downing of MH17
The mass killing of the Palestinians and Syrians
The murder of the Rohingyans
The displaced people all around the world
And three of my relatives passed away this year.  

It is just sad to hear these news though most of them are not related to me. 

Though it is very unfortunate,
we have all the more reasons to be grateful. 
All the years after Mak's passing,
this is what I always remind of myself.

I am grateful because,
even though Mak is no longer around,
we own something more than some other people from every corner of the world. 

This year, too, I got the chance to celebrate eid with my family and friends. My brother and my nephews came back. I got to see Hannah and Adele. I made cookies with Yasmin and Fatin. Spent time with my sis. Took a family picture which was a hectic task with 11 kids! (It was so hard to make everyone look at the camera at the same time and without sticking their fingers into their nose :P). Berjarah raya with my friends though it was not really according to plan and some friends were not with us. Had a picnic on 7th Syawal. Still received duit raya... Hehe. Dalam hati berdoa, the next year I must give out duit raya to my nephews and nieces. And my dad too. Ameen. 

That pretty sums up my eid celebration.
The week after my sis returned to Mukah and my brother returned to Terengganu.
Sunyik balit dah rumah tok. But it's okay. I'm used to it :)

Here are some pictures of my eid.

Belajar buat biskut raya sendiri ;)

Below are behind the scenes pictures that I managed to take. Adele in action. Haha. Nang jadi olahnya.

With Cikgu Maznah

With Cikgu paling lejen. Cikgu Jelani.

The adorable Baby Hannah. 

I have tried some bit of a change in style. Ngee~ 
No tudung instant this raya. Hihu~

Anyway, I might have been going out with the same people year after year 
but they're awesome!

Diakhiri dengan selfie with inhijabs shawl. Hewhew.

That's all. 
Will be writing again soon. 
Till then. 


why be ungrateful when you have the people 
whom you call family and friends?

Friday, July 4, 2014

right or wrong?

"Did I make the right choice?"


I asked myself this question
13 days before I came back to Kuching... for good.

When I looked at my fellow juniors in Tamhidi
who had then recently registered, as a graduating senior,
I really wanted to ask them,
"Are you making the right choice... by entering USIM?"

Sarah once pointed out, why were we so strong to stay in USIM?
If we were weak enough, we would have left it for the better.

You know how heartbreaking it is 
when you graduate from a law school after 6 years 
but people say you are not allowed to practice?
When you graduate, your juniors,
your friends and acquaintances from other law schools
are given the opportunity to do pupillage and you're not?
When you suffered so much
but your hard work went in vain?

Hence, the question.
"Did I make the right choice?"

My negative mind says I didn't.
I deserve better.

But looking at the brighter side,
it's not that all opportunities are locked up.
As pointed out by one of the LPQB evaluators,
Datuk Khutubul Zaman, we are better off than UNISZA 
since we can still practice as a Syarie lawyer.
But somehow,
we still cried out of disappointment and anger against the faculty
at the end of the interview.

Anyway, not all seniors are jobless now.
Of course, the door of opportunity is a bit smaller for us.
But, though it sounds simplistic to some,
rezeki Allah luas.

Am I right? 

I hope I can always remember these words...

"Even if I made the wrong choice,
it's an experience. 
It might have been what's best for me
no matter how bitter.
 Or maybe He has something better in store."