forgetting or healing?

Assalamualaikum~

13 March had passed.

The day she left us.

Although the memory still linger and at times I miss her a lot,

I can feel that I started to feel less hurt.

I even FORGOT what 13 March is all about.

I started to ponder whether I am forgetting her bit by bit,

shunning away the memories I had with her.

Is she becoming less significant to me now?

Have I ceased to become a filial daughter by reminiscing less?

Some might judge me so,

but I guess forgetting means I am almost 'healed' right?

It means I am letting her go.

It means I can fully accept the fact.

It means I am stronger.

Only after 3 years, I felt my heart is at peace.

Grief ambush does sometimes come by.

But that's all normal to me :)

Now I know,
time really does heal.

My mom never taught me to be 'congek'.

So I bet she'll be happy if she could see me in this state.

May Allah bless her.

Wassalam.

Satukan kami sekeluarga kembali di Syurga-Mu 

i miss them

Assalamualaikum.


It has been a few months since our friends in Fiqh & Fatwa course left us. Ami once pointed out how she is feeling the loss because most of them are our close friends. Tshy must be feeling the same too as most of our ex-homies were from the same course.

I had to admit but I am no different.
But I told Ami that I try not to bother such feelings because it'll just make me feel gloomy.

I've written this before but the people that I will miss the most would be Aisyah and Auni. You see, I am a person who happen to have different circles of friends. And it becomes an advantage for me because there are things that I can and cannot share with certain group of friends.

With Aisyah and Auni, it seems like I can just talk about everything with them. Especially Aisyah since we've become housemates ever since I began my study in USIM. She's my first friend in USIM and maybe I can say she knows what kind of person I am - the bad and the good side - already by now.

Studies, Korean or Japanese entertainment, love and crushes, gossip, family stuff, mooting, friends, lecturers etc etc.. There are a lot of things that I can share with them without hesitating. But like I wrote before, people come and go. Ada sebab kenapa Allah bring this people into my life, and ada sebab kenapa Allah brings them out of my life. Not totally out, but yea, they're no longer around anymore.

I may seem like I don't care but I do actually. I just decide not to take things so negatively. Yes, I don't have other people that can replace them, but I don't have to grieve over that matter.

I miss them,
but life must move on.


Wassalam.